"I'm A Slow-ass Writer" #Writing via @Blogger

Do you ever get that feeling that you're lagging behind your potential? Of course you do! It's what motivates us to do better. To kind of put things in my kind of narrative, I'm going to start with describing how I learned that I was a slow ass writer. Hopefully, this is the last time I lag behind this badly! (I'm A Slow Ass Writer!)

Why I'm Bidding On @Freelancer For #Writing and #Graphics Projects

Hmmm. Due to the fact that I need money for this weekend, I went to Freelancer to check the boards for some bids to bid on because I've gotten work from there before. All of the projects I've ever bid on through that service are related to some kind of writing project. But today, I muster up some confidence and checked on photo editing and graphic design. And in one particular bid, I even started working on some of the images they posted that they wanted editing on and detailed to the client that I was already working on it.

The problem is however, that I can only bid on the project and hope that they read and respond to my request there because I need reviews on my profile to even directly send them a message and I don't have those reviews yet.

A few days ago though, I created a service to rough draft and write fiction for anyone who's looking for it. Because I want to indulge in creative writing to see if I can sell people on the idea. It's part of the process where I force myself into that market and with cool illustrations, I don't know why anyone wouldn't be down with that?

I guess fiction is looked at as something that isn't worth spending money on if it isn't well-written. That's pretty fair to say. But they're probably in the same boat where spending a little more than a dollar is too much of a risk. I know I can't do it right now. I'll go hit up the free book downloads myself, so it's totally understandable.

Yes. This is more of a personal post than something that's going to help you out. If it makes up for it, at least you can kind of see yourself trying to get a gig from that site. No?

It's because I'm stuck in this project that's just soooo boring, that I can't see myself doing anything else like, having the energy to write a book or write anything on other sites. Not even blogging. Also the money sucks!

I Forgot What I Was Going To Write About!

I'm going to try something new here. It's something I did before on another blog I post on, where I would post every single post I write every time I would write it. So, that's what I'm gonna do now, starting with this one:

Blank canvas by PixaBay

Let me first tell you why this is appropriate for this blog. Because it's another one of these battles between me and a blank page, what the fuck can I do but sit here and try to muscle through some half-assed ideas to put something on it?

Time isn't on my side when this shit happens and it's extremely frustrating. Even worse is that I knew what I was going to write about only a few seconds before. GodDAMMIT! So it's another obstacle for me to overcome, but again, what the fuck do I do? Well, I try to write about what I was doing in order to jiggle that memory lever. I almost had it. (I Forgot What I Was Going To Write About!)

Preemptive writing satisfaction

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I know that there is such thing as being satisfied. I bitch and complain a lot about problems with writing which is the reason I started this blog, but sometimes I am happy with my daily writing tasks and meeting my goals.

But last night I felt as if I hadn't done enough to meet my goal this time and have been falling behind on that as a priority. I actually left the computer with the idea that I was going to come back hardcore and meet these goals today (Monday), but I'm doing it without a plan. 

I think the whole point here is to just take what's in my head currently and write it out as best as I possibly can as I post, which is how I do things by default. 

I have tried many other ways but there's always that discomfort of uncertainty if I don't automatically do them that way when I feel I need to meet those goals. 

Which means I have to really be focused and engaged to relieve that stress. 

That's really the answer to everything, isn't it?

Once I go through that experience on a daily basis, I know I'll feel like I've actually done something, after all.